Carly’s blog

I have never seem to understand a man's world of his feeling sometime it is usaully sex, drugs and money.

      This week I had to guess my feelings of what I need the most clothes, money and worrying about my brother who wants to be in the bussiness of stealng and being the big boss and for 2 days he has not contact are father nor his mother the only one he had in contact and I was only one there for him and only me knowing what he was doing and I could see that he was doing these because of getting revenge of his dad because of past events of his parents issues and now my brother thinks he's ballin or he is  become better at this cause he is destined to do this and because of this . I skipped my work to go see him at the island we talked about his bussines and after we went to go get his hair cut a whole new bro look which made me cry which made feel like I am a mother to him and he's my baby boy. After Post Hair Cut we again talked about the money he is getting and then One Word surprised me in many ways the one word he said " I going to take care of you ,if there is anything you need I am always there for you and I would die for you " and could never understand that in my ways he ways talking about buying me this and contact lens and if I runaway or anything he would give me a place to stay and he still know that I always there for him and that I always worry for him. I can't even understand that no one on my famly would do that for me like he would.

( The Both Of Us are Half Sister and Half Brother we have different mothers but the same father we were seperated for 16 years ,we are both 1 year apart from are age , we completly like twins and we both agree too that)

I recently discovered that I have no boundaries to sleeping around with anyone .

Chilling with my brother and my uncle who are the same age as me and smoking up , we all decided to go to our father' s house relax as for me I get worried of my father's reaction as he already knows I have made bigger mistakes and had many problems that I chased for in my recent past such as getting pregnant later having a miscarriage , drinking too much and the temptation to drink ,drinking honey cough syrup for 3 months , failing my grades to skip classes , cheating on my boyfriend with many of my guy friends and now he sees me as a pot smoker not the perfect image for me. I don't really know I worry about it now then before when I was worrying about getting caught but now for me I couldn't care now maybe one I will now I still live by having fun. Me , my brother and my uncle go to my dad's house we decided to stay out side in the freezing cold talking about if are eyes are red the three of us look into each others eyes know both are red we decided to go in the house when we enter the house I go to my bed fast as my dad asks me ,"Were are you going" and replied with my words of confusing I say "Upstairs to put my coat in my room" I fast put perfume on me so I don't smells at all but I really did care so I went down to the kitchen to my boys running away from my dad , my brother says What are you doing go give the man a hug and me feeling scared to give my father while I am high and having the hunger for food , hug my dad he asks me if I have been smoking up and tells me  if i want to come, sit and talk about it and I feel like there is nothing to talk about it. Three of us go up stairs to my room which is me and my brother room because its his room and give it to and now he sleeps on the couch.

If you had to teach something, what would you teach?

I would teach arts because I love art.

I love painting ,I love the colors and just to see the beauty of everything its amazing